One of those days.

It's one of those days, people.  One of those days where it feels like the world is just totally mocking me.  Laughing at my existence.

Honestly, this may sound silly, but I need SoulCycle today.  More than ever.  It has this amazing ability to take the world away from me for 45 minutes and let me focus on my heart and soul and mind.  I am pretty sure this is why people like yoga so much.  Yoga doesn't quite get me there like SoulCycle does.  But if this is that feeling they are trying to describe to me, I get it now.  (they being "the yogis")

I'm just second-guessing all of my choices today.  All of them.  Everything.  Literally everything.  Except maybe...whether or not to keep breathing.  I'm not second-guessing that.  But everything else is up for debate on whether I've made a good choice or not. 

I really don't have anything else to say about it.  Because I haven't come up with any answers.  But boy, do you ever just sit back and look at your life and wonder "how did I get HERE?" 

How did I get here? 

Seriously.

Good thing I'm going to SoulCycle tonight.  Just a few more hours until I can disconnect and re-evaluate. 

Hey, that's another choice I'm not second-guessing.  Giving myself that class tonight.  Good for me.  Yay.

Rainy Days and Mondays

"Talkin' to myself and feeling old..." A favorite song out of my rep book! Oh Karen Carpenter...you enjoy your low notes just as much as I do. :)

But really. It's a rainy day. And it's Monday. And y'know what, rainy days and Mondays always get me down. I could NOT get out of bed on time this morning. There was just no way. BUT instead of complaining about the "rainy dayness" of it all, I'm going to look on the bright side.

On the bright side of this rainy day, I got the go-ahead from my boss to take 2 days to finish my QB training. Not the funnest of tasks, but it means 2 days working from home, which I never get to do. Sweatpants and glasses! No makeup! Yay!

Also on the bright side - I have a date tonight! Whoopee!

Bright side again - I booked a trip to Austin! Love visiting my family. Can't get enough of 'em.

Lastly - I'm getting back on the healthy wagon and starting a new "meal plan" tomorrow. (I will not use the "d" word because ...well, they never seem to work! So...meal plan is my preferred phrase.) Smaller portions, less meat, more veggies and a lot less snacking! And hopefully I can convince myself to work out more than once a week...cause that's just sad, Lauren. Seriously.

Ok, back to work and back to humming Ms. Carpenter's old tune...

"Hangin' around...nothing to do but frown. Rainy days and Mondays always get me down."