One of those days.

It's one of those days, people.  One of those days where it feels like the world is just totally mocking me.  Laughing at my existence.

Honestly, this may sound silly, but I need SoulCycle today.  More than ever.  It has this amazing ability to take the world away from me for 45 minutes and let me focus on my heart and soul and mind.  I am pretty sure this is why people like yoga so much.  Yoga doesn't quite get me there like SoulCycle does.  But if this is that feeling they are trying to describe to me, I get it now.  (they being "the yogis")

I'm just second-guessing all of my choices today.  All of them.  Everything.  Literally everything.  Except maybe...whether or not to keep breathing.  I'm not second-guessing that.  But everything else is up for debate on whether I've made a good choice or not. 

I really don't have anything else to say about it.  Because I haven't come up with any answers.  But boy, do you ever just sit back and look at your life and wonder "how did I get HERE?" 

How did I get here? 

Seriously.

Good thing I'm going to SoulCycle tonight.  Just a few more hours until I can disconnect and re-evaluate. 

Hey, that's another choice I'm not second-guessing.  Giving myself that class tonight.  Good for me.  Yay.

Day 316: They do look a bit like tools used for torture....

Day 316: They do look a bit like tools used for torture...., a photo by lalasappy on Flickr.

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Doctor's offices always make me nervous. I know these do no harm...but don't they look like they could?!

Day 120: If that isn't a dilated eye, I don't know what is.

Day 120: If that isn't a dilated eye, I don't know what is., a photo by lalasappy on Flickr.

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Eye Doctor this morning. Let me tell you how great it feels to stare at my computer screen right now. With bright office lights. Yeah...awesome.

Dear World,

Please give New York City a little more sunshine. The temps are fine, honestly...because you're not sweating me to death, but I still don't have to wear a coat. Just, lose the gloom.

Thanks.

Love,

Lauren