Day 33: Fail! Bad Lauren.

Day 33: Fail! Bad Lauren., a photo by lalasappy on Flickr.

I feel like whenever I take a BUNCH of pictures the day before...I forget to take a picture the next day.

Oh well. I was busy! I had work! And then I went to yoga! And then Dad came to town for 24 hours!

Day 20: FAIL.

Day 20: I failed. I forgot to take a picture. Which is sad because it was an exciting day! Fail., a photo by lalasappy on Flickr.

I failed. I forgot to take a picture. Which is sad because it was an exciting day! Fail.

So disappointed in myself. Wah wah wah....

Great Day Yesterday = Long Day Today

I am so sleepy.

Yesterday was a long day full of lots of fun things...but silly me, I didn't get home until about 12:45 and then had to get up for work! I'm usually very good about going to bed on time.

But I couldn't help myself! First I went to the dog run with the puppies, then I went to a little garden party thrown by a dear friend of mine, then had a coaching with the amazing Lady Jo, and then finally I went over to my friend Erin's house to spend some time with her before she and her beautiful family move to Phoenix, AZ. We played this crazy card game and I really got to see how competitive her husband is. It was kind of hilarious. I think my favorite part was when he picked up his cards and said "ooo, Daddy liiiiiiiiiiiiike...." I'm so glad I got to see her before she left. And I am putting it on the blog so it's official: I AM COMING TO VISIT. :)

I'm so grateful for my friends. You're all so sweet and wonderful and just so so good to me. Thank you for that. I hope you know that you're always in my heart and on my mind, even if we don't get to chat as much as I'd like.

Anywho...just wanted to give you all the fabulous details of my Memorial Day (Memorial Day always makes me think of the musical PARADE. Do you know it? I was in it in Boston and all day I just kept repeating Mary Phagan's line in my head "Mr. Frank? Happy Memorial Day." in a southern accent. ...oh, actors.) and tell you that you're THE BEST BLOG READERS EVER!

Side note: Auditions coming up. Thursday and Monday. Scared. Excited. Other feelings too.

Lovies!

Oh my gosh, what is WRONG with me?!

First: I stopped running, apparently. I ran on Sunday and I haven't run since. And guess what? THE RACE IS ON SATURDAY. That's 2, COUNT 'EM 2, days from now....

Last night I said "ok Lauren, get up in the morning and run and you can go into work a few minutes late!" Which turned into...Sleep in til 8:40...still be late for work, but no running.

Ugh.

Nothing will get me motivated and things keep just popping up to distract me! I got stuck at work on Monday, had an audition after work Tuesday, a callback after work Wednesday and now tonight I'm seeing MEMPHIS...so there goes this week.

PS: Callback? Nothing fab. Weird company and they are looking for 3 women out of the 30 at the callback which lasted about 3 hours. ...Can you say, "hey, you're kind of wasting my time?"

Yup, you can.

Anywho, I'll shut up about running for a minute.

I'm having some trouble deciding...where to go, what to do next...I just have no idea. I think I want to move to Austin? But there's really no major reason aside from my family. Part of me doesn't want to give up on "the dream" but part of me is like "if I leave NY, I'll probably get to work MORE because there's less competition." I don't know.

Any ideas for me? Careers to pursue? Places to go? Things to try? I've run out of steam trying to think of things or ideas.

OH: PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE ME SOME GOOD RUNNING TUNES! I need 'em for Saturday.

Ok, back to work now! Gotta be productive in SOME way today!

Fail, Fail FAIL FAIL FAIL.

Did I run 4 miles this weekend?

Nope.

Did I eat healthy knowing I'm running a race next week?

Nope.

Did I even run both days this weekend?

NOPE.

Saturday, I did some 30 minute Kettlebells Workout Video that was on-demand at my fam's house.

Sunday I ran 2.32 miles. LAME.

My only excuse? It was SO much hotter outside than I thought and I was not prepared.

But still, totally lame, Lauren, and now you have to WORK YOUR TUSH OFF THIS WEEK to make sure you're ready for this race on Saturday.

And y'know what? Because I never actually do anything with weights anymore, that dang kettlebell work out just about killed my muscles. My legs are still sore today. Laaaaame.

Let's see, let's see...bright side?

Mmm, I can't really think of a bright side to any of that.

But I did have an enjoyable weekend. It was so nice to get out of the city. And my puppies enjoyed the trip so much. I also painted eggs! Which is NOT a tradition for my immediate family, so it was a fun new thing!

5 days til my race! AHHH AHHH AHHHHHHH!

Oh and bonus happy: The weather today is SO NICE! Perfect, actually. High of 70. Not too hot, but I didn't need long sleeves at all today!

Tomorrow's hotter...78, not sure if that's too much yet. I want a little more SPRING weather. LOW 70's is ideal. I don't need to go straight to disgusting NY summer.

Lovies and kisses and easter eggs!

Such a fail.

So I rocked out this weekend with my running, right?

And then ran Monday morning (but only like 2 miles cause I was tired and had to go to work). And then...NOTHING. I have not run since. And I know I won't run today. And I know I won't run tomorrow. So Saturday and Sunday I have to run my tush off and I'm going to be exhausted cause I will have had 5 days off. GROSS.

BAD LAUREN BAD.

This is all I have time for at the moment cause I have to get back to work. Booooo.

Lovies!

No Run Last Night

It was rainy and gross and then started doing CRAZY LIGHTNING!

But to make up for it, I did WiiFit. Hehe. I did the "free step" which means I can basically march in place on the little wii fit board thing while watching TV. I did 2 30-min sessions. Did not even really break a sweat, but at least I was moving...

...and then this morning I woke up and my calves were like "WHOA LAUREN OUCH OUCH OUCH". Cause...y'know, apparently marching for an hour only uses calf muscles? I don't know. But today they are sore and in need of a good stretch.

I am having trouble motivating myself at work. And it's been this way for like 2 weeks. I need something to get me going again. And I'm just like...wah waaaaah. I don't know. I just wanna move to a new city and go back to school, dang it. I wish I knew what I wanted to go for.

SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO WITH MY LIIIIIIIIIFE!

Ok then! Lovies!

CHRISTMAS CARDS - Fail.

I had a whole big plan back at Thanksgiving to have a friend of mine come over and take a few pictures of me and the pups and then I'd get all my Christmas cards ready and sent by 15th.

....That didn't happen.

Instead I chose to do it last night on iPhoto and do "a year in review" and used pictures I've taken throughout the year and write a little "here's what I did this year" letter.

To be perfectly honest, I don't like it. It's fine, I mean, sure. But...I'm disappointed in myself for not planning ahead enough to get it done.

So uh...if you want my stinky card, send me your address and I'll send you one.

But I doubt this post has made you want to receive it anyway!

Love you all, faithful readers! (if you exist...hello? is anyone out there?!?)