Rainy Days and Mondays

"Talkin' to myself and feeling old..." A favorite song out of my rep book! Oh Karen Carpenter...you enjoy your low notes just as much as I do. :)

But really. It's a rainy day. And it's Monday. And y'know what, rainy days and Mondays always get me down. I could NOT get out of bed on time this morning. There was just no way. BUT instead of complaining about the "rainy dayness" of it all, I'm going to look on the bright side.

On the bright side of this rainy day, I got the go-ahead from my boss to take 2 days to finish my QB training. Not the funnest of tasks, but it means 2 days working from home, which I never get to do. Sweatpants and glasses! No makeup! Yay!

Also on the bright side - I have a date tonight! Whoopee!

Bright side again - I booked a trip to Austin! Love visiting my family. Can't get enough of 'em.

Lastly - I'm getting back on the healthy wagon and starting a new "meal plan" tomorrow. (I will not use the "d" word because ...well, they never seem to work! So...meal plan is my preferred phrase.) Smaller portions, less meat, more veggies and a lot less snacking! And hopefully I can convince myself to work out more than once a week...cause that's just sad, Lauren. Seriously.

Ok, back to work and back to humming Ms. Carpenter's old tune...

"Hangin' around...nothing to do but frown. Rainy days and Mondays always get me down."

The News You've All Been Waiting For...

Not really.

Do you ever feel like your blog post is just anti-climactic? I read my friend's blogs and they're all "We just found out...IT'S A GIRL!", "Big news...WE'RE ENGAGED!", "Guess what...WE'RE MOVING!", "You were all asking...PICTURES FROM THE HONEYMOON". "I'm so relieved...I GOT A NEW JOB!".

Do I need any more examples? You get the idea.

And here I am like..."I went home to Pittsburgh for Christmas!" "Look at this funny picture of my face!" "It's snowing!" "Complain complain complain".

. . .

I'm totally lame.

My life seems so small and insignificant sometimes. Especially now. My job is nothing important. I'm completely replacable. I audition for shows...I get callbacks...and never get cast. I feel untalented and unwanted. My jeans are a little tight. I'm totally not cute anymore.

I mean, I see what posts get attention and what posts don't...big news, something dramatic, something exciting: Comments. Me just rambling: Not so chatty. I'm not fishing for blog comments here, but I'm just saying...

Is my purpose in life this menial? Is my daily life so mundane?

Sigh...I don't know, cyber world... Blogs are cool and I'm glad I have you faithful readers out there who like to peek in on me from time to time. But sometimes I take a step back and just think, "This is so lame".

Not lame like "blogs are dumb", but lame like "look at what's important for me to write down". I mean, shouldn't I blog about something important? Save the Whales! Adopt a Puppy...and then NEUTER IT! Recycle!!!

I fully support all those ideas. But why don't I write about them? And if I did, would you even wanna read it? I am all for good deeds and stuff, but I don't know how often I'd want to read about it.

Anywho...I'm off to save the office from disorganization.

Lovies to you, dear readers!

Peace.

I feel so much spring.

I can smell spring in the air. This morning I walked outside to the lightest wind and the smell of spring trying to break through the February wintriness.

I felt like I could breathe deeply outside for the first time in months. Where the air doesn't hurt my chest because of the cold.

It relaxed me. It revived me. It put me in the most positive of moods.

And then I got to work. And people bugged me. And now that happy feeling is completely gone.

I think a walk at lunchtime is most definitely in order. TGIF.

On a less cranky note...the windows are open in the office and so I can enjoy the warmer weather even at my desk...kind of...my desk is farthest from the windows. But still.

Part of me hopes that the weather stays this nice until Spring...but I know that we'll probably snow one more time this year. Truth be told, winter felt too short this year. I didn't get to play in the snow at all!

Oh well. Next year.

Peace.

Busiest Two Weeks Ever

I feel like I'll never get to blog again, I'm so busy.

Work has a lot going on and it's stressing me out. I'm almost finished with our filing cabinet makeover...It's going to be such a relief when it's done.

Mom was in town for 3 days, then I went home for 3 days...where the family had a mini dramafest...then I was back for Valentine's Day, work work work, therapy, work work, seeing a show tonight, work work tomorrow is figuring out the company taxes - YIKES, workity work, back to Pittsburgh again...missing work Monday, fly back Tuesday for a half day and then at some point finish the training DVDs I got for Quickbooks so I can send them back.

Then at some point I must figure out when I'm going to Austin to visit...I am going up to Boston for a Saturday/Sunday in March and I need to find a dogsitter cause my usual one can't...Had to schedule an eye doctor appointment....I haven't been to the dentist in a year and that disgusts me but I have NO TIME TO FIND ONE. And at some point, I'd love to get back into auditioning...since that's why I moved here in the first place.

Oy.

But in the meantime, I'll sit here at work and drive myself crazy and eat my delicious starbucks oatmeal at 11:30am since I will most likely get too busy and forget to eat lunch.

Oh, and the flowers on my desk are dying! 2 days and they're dying! Grr.

On the bright side, did I mention how much I love my iPhone 4 cover? It's pink and adorable. I'd take a picture of it with my phone...but you see how that would be an issue...

Ta-ta.

Hi.

I can't blog today. I have way too much to do.

But...hi.

Friday's Thoughts

Do you ever have those days where all you want to do is just turn on your favorite tunes and ...well, tune out? Don't want to deal with anything. Don't want to DO anything. Or, do whatever you WANT to do, not what you're being told to do.

Today's my day. Today's my day where I want to put on whatever my iTunes has to offer and just jam. Maybe clean the apartment. Maybe do some yoga. But just forget about life for awhile.

But here I am, writing you (shhh, don't tell) from work. Where I am plagued with Quickbooks transactions to log and a meeting that I was actually looking forward to with my bosses is canceled. Boo.

I want to sing some Dolly Parton! I want to jam to Lady Gaga. I want to feel warm and fuzzy listening to some Ingrid Michaelson. But all I hear is the printer printing...and the phone ringing...and the click click click as I type to you, my dear readers, on this keyboard.

I could do the whole "headphones at my desk" thing since the bosses aren't in...but I hate that because then if someone I don't know walks in, I look like that totally irresponsible receptionist who listens to her iPod while facebooking instead of working. (Or blogging, I guess? Whatevs. It's taken me like an hour to write this because I go back and forth from real work to...not real work.)

Anywho. Tonight. I'm gonna rock out. And nobody is stopping me. So there.

Also, I have this feeling of being constantly hungry, but not wanting anything to eat. What is that about?

(I have found this blog to be a good outlet for whatever is physically wrong with me on a particular day. PS: eye twitch...totes still there.)

I have three things to say.

My eyelid keeps twitching. It's been at least 12 hours and it hasn't stopped. What does this mean?

GO STEELERS!!!! Lucky number 7! (this would be their 7th win...to those of you not familiar with Steelers Super Bowl History)

I want to go on vacation. Really bad. Somewhere warm and beachy. Where should I go that's affordable but still AWESOME?

K readers...give me some answers.